Saturday, April 02, 2011

On any given day
you will find me in my car crying, letting off a little steam from the weeks events
On any given day
you will find me red in face so angry I can not see for any number of reasons ranging from parents who beat their children and worse or over office politics which I abhor or being judged for things I have or have not done.
On any given day
you will find me laughing,joking,being crude or down right raunchy and over all having a moment of funny.
On any given day
you will find me day dreaming about days past and events that were funny or day dreaming about my so called "happy place" a cabin in the woods looking out over a sill and quiet lake while I sit on my porch
On any given day
you will find me filled with fear. Fear of the future , Fear of past mistakes returning, Fear of the present, and Fear of decisions that must be made.
On any given day
you will find me in my bath room downing a shot of tequila to make it through a tense evening.
On any given day
you will find me hugging my daughter just cause and basking in the moment of tenderness with her.
On any given day
you will find me talking to my son at night on his bed. listening to him tell me about the newest Lego piece or the latest saga of his circle of friends.
On any given day
you will find me in prayer asking God to fix my life once again.
On any given day
you will find me make a deal with God that if He does fix it again I will do this or that.....
On any given day
you will find me in Awe of my maker.
On any given day
you will find me being what every one else wants me to be. Then in my car or when I am alone you will find me being me with all my faults, strengths,dreams, wishes , hopes , desires, loves, tenderness, humor, and regrets.
But on any given day if you look close enough you will see me living my life



3 comments:

judi/Gmj said...

on any given day.. I thank God you are my daughter.

Tracy said...

I see you and I hear you. I thank God for you, my friend.

karen said...

Me too.